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Love me?Love me?
Love me not
I guess you forgot

Fear you yes?
Let me guess.
Which ever
Dosn't matter

Your love is like death
You'll always be my meth

Let me be
Shall I flee?
Which ever
Dosn't matter

Love me?
Love me not
I guess you really forgot

Fall From GraceAn angel will fall
Their wings tarnished and brittle
Unable to hold

Their light diminished
Darkness envelopes their soul
Their cries are unheard

The look to their lord
But his gaze has turned away
Leaving them to fall

They extend their arm
Hoping for someone to come
Stop them from falling

But no one will come
Left to crumble and die out
As they fall from grace

I am strongRemember those walls I built?
Maybe I should tear them down,
Or maybe I should make them stronger.

Can I trust you?
Can I let you in?

Show you my heart, my soul.
I do not want to be broken,
I do not want to fear the dark.

But I know I do not need anyone to save me,
I am my own savior.
I can never trust you,
You do not deserve it.

I do not love you,
I never will.

I will protect my heart forever from you.
I will not tear down my walls.
I will never show you my heart,
You can not hurt me.

I am strong

Time, and Time AgainSo here we go again
The sadness comes in waves
Some call it depression
Others label it a phase

But to me this is so much more
Than any words can say
As it binds to my thoughts
And turns them shades of grey

My heart then rips to shreds
In a matter of only days
It takes more of me each time
Some can see it in my gaze

As someone they once called friend
Begins to slowly slip away
The tears fall down in torrents
Turning sunny skys to rain

And though they try to help
It is always done in vain
I can forget for a time
But the sweet amnesia never stays

But I'm only looking for attention
A teen going through a phase
But it is only

Just a MomentI hurt with a pain
Unknown to my tender soul.
I yearn for the day
That the earth doesn't seem so cold.
My heart breaks with the sound of a thousand drums.
Crashing to the ground
Can't you hear it,
As the crash and ring resounds?

I pray in earnest
That I not forget
The ones that I left behind.
Those who seemed so close, yet,
Could not stay by my side.
Can I stay with you now?
To spend all my days
And laugh until dawn joins our path.
Oh, if I could only count the ways
I feel and think in moments that pass by.

Nothing But A Radioactive ScarScreaming
and
bleeding.
Just another
night trapped on the inside.
Tell
me
I
am
wrong.
Truth
of
the
matter is,
I
don't
belong.
Tell me
to be
strong.

Then ring the bell.
Push
me
to
my
limit

Can't sleepI toss and I turn
I can't seem to fall asleep
The voices inside my head
tell me that its not what I want

Whether to believe them or Not
I always do anyways...
Maybe its telling me
That sleep is my worse nightmare

I can't fall asleep
No matter how much I try
The nightmares keep rolling
making me scream at night

I toss and I turn
but sleep hates me dearly
Why can't I sleep?
Why does it hate me so much?

Reckless throughout the day
No energy I have in me
I can't sleep at all
Maybe my time is up to all

I Am WishingI am wishing I wasn't alone,
That my brain would shut off,
That people would listen
When I whisper the undeniable truth.
But if no one listens
Then who the hell cares?

I am wishing that you were here
To smother my nightmares
And make me feel like I am safe.
If they can't see what I see
When I close my eyes
Then is it really there?

I am wishing that you still loved me,
That you would feel more for me
Than you do for her,
But I will never be good enough.
If you hold me and say everything is fine
Will it be a lie?

And I just wish you would say something
Because the silence screams
More truth than I can take.
And I just

ViolinsYou played me just like a fragile violin until all the strings holding me together finally snapped… And I was lying on the floor alone, no more sounds to be made. Deemed useless, no matter how valuable I used to be… Thrown away with all the rotten vegetables… And you, the bow just put on some rosen and played some other violins… But when it came time for tuning you went too far and they too shattered… Then you went on to bigger and better cellos everyone said you would be too small but you tried anyways… When the music sounded flat no matter what you did and all the violins were gone you just wept and fell apart

She speaks in sighsShe speaks in sighs
melancholy dripping from her eyes
to her lips, leaving salty trails
on her pale cheeks

She wanders through a whirling fog
tormented by shadows
of things never there
things that will never come
to break through the misty grey,
to stop the whirling in her mind
the flooding in her eyes

She speaks in sighs
muffled exhalations
of evaporated hopes,
whispering breaths
of disintegrating dreams

She walks hand in hand
with Solitude
the two so intertwined,
there is no room in her heart
for another;
the cold so permeating
warmth is simply kept away

PossessionYou lie

You deceive

You enslaved me

To obey

To take the blame

To be the evil one

To do as you wish

But I saw the evil

And I tried to get away

But I was a possession of yours

You are a soulless creature

You use me to get what you want

But I am weak

For I cannot help but to obey you

Your words echo in my mind

And take over my heart

And lock away my soul

So that you would be my only judgment

And I your zombie puppet

And you my substance of life

I will be silent and obedient

As your slave

Once again

Just to expose the evil

Within you

Only to be possessed once again

With in my blood let it be true

I will be free of you

thank youToo long
Too short
I measured the number of words to say
Wondered how to say it
I always thought that saying "thank you"
Was easy
But when you are too grateful
You lack the words to express it
I went through that...
And I wonder if my words will reach you
But to you the one who helped me
Who said gentle words that saved me
Who made me see the world in another way
To you who put colors in my dull days
And made my life special
"Thank you"

Tortured SoulI have found myself somewhat careless
the way my mind softly whispers your name
how I now have to struggle to hold you in
my clenched teeth, your prison sentence

Failing, my mind conjures up false delusions
your presence, your brow furrowed in thought
your eyes testing my wit, jaw taught with want
for these precious moments of mine, you exist

Standing just steps from me, still unreachable
my own personal torture, yet I revel in it willingly
the distance between us, my unyielding bonds
feet glued to where they now tremble, my lashing

Such a silly mess, to fear one's own creation
my heart screaming your name in frantic beats
water

ParanoiaParanoia.

I don't want to be this way.

But I can't help but feel this way.

No matter what you do

Or what comforting words you say.

My over active mind will not allow me to believe it.

My weary blood shot eyes will not allow me to see it.

Even though my attentive heart is able to receive it.

My thoughts and my imagination will corrupt and deceive it.

And that's why no matter how much I love you.

For some reason I will always feel cheated.

So please don't blame yourself because you have done more than enough.

You have proven yourself and have provided me with so much love.

There are only so many false accusations you can take.

The

I'm a teenagerI'm
an outcast
a freak
a weirdo
a loser
an idiot
a dreamer
a child
a teenager

Yeah, I may be
useless
lazy
disrespectful
arrogant
selfish
immature
stupid
foolish
childish
naive

Okay, I know that
I'm the problem
I need to grow up
I shouldn't complain
I ought to be grateful
It's my fault

But, I am a teenager
And I won't change
I won't give up
I will survive

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All I really need
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too many times..

by *Sachi-Chan1200, Oct 22, 2012, 8:38:40 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

too many tears i`ve cried..
too many years i`ve tried..

too many days i feel..
like nothing in this world is real..

too many familiar faces i see..
that bring back painful memories..

too many mistakes i`ve made..
that brought me nothing but hate..

too many times i`ve tried to be strong..
when i`m weak, and always wrong..

too many times i didn`t succeed..
and you were never there in my time of need..

too many times i`ve lied..
faked a smile and said "i`m fine"..

too many years i`ve been all alone..
lost in this world with nowhere to go..

too many times i`ve written a poem..
describing how my own death would go..

too many times i`ve been let down..
broke all your promises and left me to drown..

too many times i`ve lost all hope..
in this pathetic world, i cannot cope..

too many times i`ve tried to escape..
this pain, this sadness, this heartache..

too many times i`ve wished to part..
from this world and people who broke my heart..

too many nights i`ve laid in bed..
wishing so badly that i were dead..

too many nights i stay up and cry..
thinking about everything and wondering why..

too many happy moments ripped away..
not sure i can go through another day..

too many times i`ve tried..
ending my life with suicide..

too many times i failed when i tried..
but not this time.. no, not this time..

too many times..by *Sachi-Chan1200

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~ki1tedyaksm3n Jan 13, 2013 Student Digital Artist

I really enjoy your style, and your voice is clear and concise. And the lyrics are nice and nihilistic, they remind me of old nine inch nail lyrics.

*Sachi-Chan1200 May 13, 2013 Hobbyist Photographer

thank you very much : )

~CrunchBandicoot Nov 1, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

This is such a powerful poem, and it's so real. I think we've all been there.

Sometimes even once is once too many...

~ParanoidGunslinger Oct 30, 2012

I agree with this so much...

~messie2624 Oct 30, 2012 Hobbyist Writer

Beautiful.

~Shockwave86 Oct 28, 2012 Student Digital Artist

VERY well written!!

~satans-stunt-double Oct 23, 2012

this is truly superb buddy! Rips my heart out and stomps all over it, but superb!!!

!vector01100 Oct 22, 2012

this truly is an amazing poem, you did such a good job with it and the emotion that comes when reading this is unbelievably amazing, I even shed a few tears....I can't really explain anymore, I'm just speechless after reading this...after reading this, the only thing I want to do is give you a great big hug and never let go.

~MisterDatt Oct 22, 2012 Hobbyist General Artist

Amazing! Can kinda relate, lol

*Sachi-Chan1200 Oct 22, 2012 Hobbyist Photographer

thank you! <3

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